OK To Be Okay

By: Megan

The endless mind she has is always ticking.

Thinking of something else it needs to do or be.

Thinking of other ways to reach a goal that seems too far away.

It has been on overdrive all of its life.

She wonders what it would be like to take a break.

But she is not okay so it doesn’t stop.

Thinking “what would happen if I become okay?”

“Will I be less interesting or less fun?”

“Will people like me the same or will they leave like before?” 

She does not think it is okay to be okay.

Because she has never been okay.

It has become her identity.

But being okay is okay.

People might even like her more.

And she would be happy and free.

She would sail over the clouds with her confidence and take on the lions staring her down.

The scary thoughts make everything seem impossible.

The end is near, but out of reach.

She is constantly trying, all the while, everyone reminds her that they like her more when she is not okay.

She wonders if she will ever escape the misery, and her heart yearns for a solution.

She blocks out the causes of her relapse.

Hopefully, they won’t stray too far and will be proud of her success in the end.

Hopefully, she won’t lose them in the process.

Hopefully, she can do it this time.

She progresses every day and shares her success with her everything.

It’s getting better.

The end is near.

She discovered it is ok to be okay.