I Will Never Be Her

By: Megan

As a child, I always thought of my future.

I would imagine how I would be when I was all grown up.

I imagined I would be extremely beautiful like one of those celebrities I used to watch.

Obviously, I would be a dancer moving swiftly across the floor while entertaining the crowd.

I would be the "popular girl." 

Everyone would know me and love me which in turn I would have a ton of friends.

I imagined I would be smart. 

The smartest person in my class to be exact.

I would always get straight A's and would get into an Ivy League college.

I would be an avid reader, and a good one too.

I would be the fastest reader in town.

I would have guys chasing after me. 

All lined up waiting for me to be single again.

I would meet my soulmate in high school and we would get married and live happily ever after.

It all seemed so nice and simple.

But it wasn't.

I am not her.

And I will never be her.

I am not extremely beautiful.

I have flaws on my skin and look angry when my face is at rest.

I am not a dancer.

I am not very good at balancing or rhythm.

I am not the "popular girl."

People barely know me and if they do the majority do not like me.

I am overly honest and blunt which some find off-putting.

I am not smart.

I am very knowledgeable and have a wonderful memory which is why many perceive me to be smart, but I am not. I have not always gotten straight A's. 
I have been close to failing a class and math just is not my forte.

I am not a reader. 

I cannot sit still long enough to finish a book nor do I have the patience for it even though I like to pretend I do. 

I do not have guys chasing after me.

No one has ever expressed interest in me and I have like one guy friend.

I have not met my soulmate.

I have not even been on a date or had my first kiss.

I am not and will never be the person I expected myself to be.

But that is okay.

I am a lot of things I never expected I would be.

I am magnificent.

I am probably the funniest person I will ever know.

I am a great writer.

I have the best taste in music.

My sense of style is incredibly unique to me.

I am brutally honest.

I am almost always down for a good time. 

I am not afraid to act silly.

I have the absolute best smile especially when I am laughing.

I have some of the best friends in the world.

I am an amazing cook.

I have the cutest cat ever.

I am a hella cool person.

I am a very good friend.

I am, in some cases, too much of an empath.

I will never be her, but

I will meet the love of my life one day.

I will be an incredible wife and mother.

I will have lots of cows.

I will be the best doctor.

I will adopt a lot of kids.

I will have a small vegan diner.

I will always act ridiculously stupid. 

I will write a book.

I will be the coolest old lady ever.

I may not be "her", but I am and will be something so much better.